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Monday, June 27, 2005
I'm in the computer lab outside of room 110 at school, waiting for Bobby to get his skinny ass over here to get my patient log. We have to keep an online log of all of the patients we have seen on service. It's a huge pain in the ass because during clinic days we usually see 5 patients each. I know that doesn't sound like a lot. However, I was in clinic three days per week during the first three weeks, and everyday for the second. That's a long list. We also have to log our operative cases, but it's easier to keep track of those. Anyway, we all lose track of what we're doing. It's good that MCO wants us to learn to be responsible for this. It lets them know what kind of experience we're getting. It also gets us used to logging all of our patient interactions. That's something we'll have to do throughout residency. Most surgery residents graduate with 1000 operative cases. That's a lot of 7 digit numbers to enter.

I am sick to death of being broke and I can't wait for my financial aid to show up. I was reading that the earliest refund date is today. I would never be that lucky. I have the following things in my kitchen: eggs, margarine, garlic, and assorted condiments. end of report. I'm sure that one day I will look back on this and laugh. It's not funny at all right now. My friend, Sarah, made me nachos and cookies at her house the other night. I took some cookies home and had them for breakfast for two days. Her cookies are fantastic.

I continue to be amazed that Tom Cruise is such a freak. I had no idea that scientology was so freaky. Gary says that this is a unique opportunity to watch the birth of a religion. I'm not sure how serious I could get about a religion that is based on somebody's science fiction novels.
~Sara~
12:53 PM


Sunday, June 26, 2005
I do not know how to be on vacation. seriously. it's sad.

I have been sitting around, contemplating my navel all day. I watched TV, did some laundry, etc.

Does anybody else think Bret Michaels is kinda hot? Anybody? ......No? Oh well.
I watched Poison's Behind the Music today, and other assorted varieties of brain rot.

I guess my big accomplishment for the day was changing my blog template. I am getting so fucking good at this I can't believe it. I'm sorry. I have to toot my own horn a bit. The place where my blog title is used to say "Cherrylicious," which will not stand on the TigerLily blog. Anyway, it was a JPEG, so I couldn't alter it through the template itself. I had to make my own JPEG, flip it sideways, upload it to my hosting site, and put the code into the template like an image. It looks a little smeary and it's not the exact color I wanted, but damn! I might mess around with it a little more. All of this is in the context of my gererally poor computer skills, so I'm proud.

I'm starting my surgery sub-internship in a week or so, and I'm a bit freaked out about it. The powers that be will expect me to be good; to know how the hospital runs, to understand the paperwork, to be able to do a good h and p without guidance, to have good clinical knowledge, and to be able to cut a suture at 1 cm, for God's sake. My hero, Dr. Z, has moved on to his fellowship in Hepatobiliary. I hope surgery is as much fun without him. There are several other good surgeons around, and I like most of the residents, so I don't think it will be so bad. This is the big test, though. Does Sara really belong in surgery? Stay tuned.

In other news, Ryan moved to Indiana yesterday. He has a new job, new outlook on life, etc. I wish him the best. xoxo
~Sara~
8:29 PM


Tuesday, June 21, 2005
I have a test on Friday, and, as usual, I'm taking a moment to sit on my duff and blog.

Do you ever have "I suck" weeks? I'm having one right now. Every relationship I have seems rife with pitfalls and misunderstandings. My friends are acting funny. Everything I try to do at work makes me feel more and more incompetent. I have been doing histories and physicals for the last year, and I still forget to ask some questions and I miss things on physical exam. My resident likes to call me out about it and make me look like an ass. I suppose I deserve it. Some other third year students I have been talking to are telling me that they're ready to be interns. I don't feel ready at all.

I don't have enough time for my family, and I feel like I'm always letting them down.

I think they might call this inappropriate guilt. It has been a rough couple of weeks.

I'm studying for my Family medicine shelf that I didn't take because my big break-up with Ryan last July wrecked me so badly that I couldn't study. So, this test will be three weeks after the one I have on Friday. I'll be studying for it over my 10 day break between 3rd and 4th year, and for the first 5 days of my surgery sub-internship. I know it's probably not the smartest thing in the world to do this, but I have this sense of writhing shame about missing this test. I just want to get it over with.

I have yet to hear from Georgetown about my away rotation that I want to do there in August. I hate to feel like I don't have a concrete plan. I guess I'm more than a little bit rigid that way.

By the way, some of the residents I have been working with are so jaded they make me (ME!) look like the biggest pollyanna optimist in the world. It's utterly suffocating to be around them. I hope I don't end up that way. I don't want to dislike my patients.

I'm sick to death of not having any money.
I need to go to the gym.
This is the worst post ever.
I suck.
~Sara~
8:31 PM


Friday, June 03, 2005
I must have this game...

There's a new video game out for the Nintendo DS. Now, those of you who know me well know that I am pretty much done with my gaming days. There just isn't enough time in my life for that kind of recreation. However, this game is a surgery game, called Trauma Center: Under the Knife. I looked through all of the screen shots today, and I was about to panic because there weren't any female doctors. Then, I saw her:

~Sara~
10:23 AM

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